searching

I remember as child when my aunt came to visit us from the USA. She was already up in age but she took me at the side and spoke to me. You have to leave this land . You are to smart to be here. It was one of the few time someone  spoke  words of hope to my life. The school system told my parents I was not good enough to continue  and education to learn a trade and be content.  I was  amused by the English language and even if my grades were no the top of the class i fervently desire to learn it and hope maybe one day i could go somewhere and  improve it . Of course after the junior high I became a waitress and there  new beginnings but JESUS was not even close to be my savior. I had life experienced were  my life was in  situation I  do not even remember but His hand was on me. In time of distress  he never left me. I was  in  search of him but I had no idea how I could even talk to such Great God.   Many I found myself in churches while were empty  and quietly  sat myself in the pew and wait and wait till all was still and i was hearing  his voice. Is was beautiful but I could not understand how I could came close to the God of Glory.I always left as i had accomplish the great est thing in my life . But all I had experienced was still inside of my young spirit , and I looked love and acceptance  in the wrong places  increasing  heart aches. But  he still was faithful to me