Never Alone 1

I  was Born In Italy where i lived half of my life and this is how all begun.
I was a child  of shy nature i remember be mocked a lot and ridiculed, and my way of coping with it was to laugh my way  but inside i had so much sorrow.  I grew up in a dis functional family where the word love was never mention not shown by  human emotions.  Mom and Dad were  matched to marry and from there  me and my sister  were  born.  I remember little of my child hood  but they was  hard in a child eyes and I hope one day I would wake up and all was over and new .   Occasionally as a family we did take field trips and that was the high moment of our childhood. But when it was over it was back to the same again.  we never travel  to a real trip together, that was something it did made me wonder why and as I grew I  understood  that our family has issues but it was never a family time we had lo live  and ignore as we were in a play and when it was over the costumes were off and hanged up on the clothes line and we were back to reality.  But for us all of it way realite it never change. Dreary days in darkness.
As young age I rememebr  the experiece we had while my sister brought home a widja board from school and we were playing but it became real  demonic forces were manifastion to us and speaking.  I remeber my mother in ingorance took ut to places and we were doing  meeting  invoking  them and they manfasted, all in the name of fun and entrateinment.  At first was ok, but as the time went by i felt much demonic opression in my young spirit and i Did no  know what to do and how to escape.  My mom love  horror movies that did not help, the house was opress and depressed.  Few days i experienced real joy. I had a prayin g grand mother who left a mark in my life with her life story, and she always inspired me. As an Italian i grew up in a given religion  but not in a relationship with the LORD JESUS CHRIST. I remember having God parents  but i did nt undertand why, they try to mentor me, and that was the only positive thing about it. I receive a new testament bible and from there in spite my surrounding, I  started to hide my self in it and eating of the word, I never had enough of it. It was given me peace in  tormented nights.  I did not undestand why than but now YES. JESUS himself visited me and was there  he was speaking  true his word giving me confort and hope .I told him i wan to serve him but i could not i was not called to be a noun. He smiled and told me  CAME, and I trusted  in Him, and since that day  he keep HIS promise. HE NEVER LEFT ME ALONE